This is... complete hypocrisy when I say this...
but I'd like to encourage everyone with a blog to
1)write more
2)to write without fear
3)to write with your voice, because no one else can say what you are thinking
No, I don't plan on being an English teacher because I don't think I could say this to a classroom full of kids with a straight face, day after day. I'll leave that to professionals like Hazeu.
Writing is a tough, effing deal. When was the last time you tried to free write? When was the last time you tried creation at all? It's difficult! It's always difficult! (But I suppose the difficulty is somewhat pending upon your personal expectations.)
I can't do it.
Wait yes I can. I've been attempting it for years and years. Some years were more productive than others - sure. But there are some things that I'm really proud about writing.
I get excited about writing sometimes, like I get excited when I think about printing a negative after seeing it for the first time when the fix is all washed off, when the viewfinder of the camera places a clean and well-thought out composition and the footage is finally captured so the sequence is mentally pieced together.
I usually get excited about writing because I read good writing.
I can't do it.
I don't know what to do, what I should do or if I'm doing what I am currently doing (a lot of nothing and freaking the fuck out) is for the right reason... or if it is a direct result of my tendency to hate humanity, love and myself.
But I think I have a good idea what love is. And I think I love humanity and myself enough to be humble and recognize that I (me, Alvin) is not a big deal at all
and
at the same time
I know that they love me.
I'm always okay. Maybe there are times when I wish I were doing better, but I'm always okay.
I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way. Aren't we all?
Your turn;
Am I something of an island?
Why does/did Mrs. Krygsman think I was cocky?
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Nice post, dude. I'll try and write more.
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ReplyDeletewe have so been over the my Mom thingy
I free write on my blog a lot. That is what most of my lists are. But I suspect there is a better version of free writing that I am not doing. *shrug*
good post one way or another.
I sometimes think I share things too personal on my blog....
ReplyDeleteI have wanted to do one of those deals where you write in a notebook or type for a very long time in stream of consiousness until you start figuring out new things about yourself or reveal deep dark things buried deep inside of you, but I haven't yet.
And I think a lot of people, young men especially, that are bold or express intelligence or opinion readily or ask a lot of probing questions come acrosss as cocky, but really aren't at heart.
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ReplyDeleteHey Paul, is that your mom? Is Laura your mom?