Distractions

You know what's a total bitch?
That's right.

But it's a decision too, because I can very well say, "Screw you! I'm studying!"
Or rather, "Screw you! I want to write a kick ass paper and I have to do it tonight!"

I can! I'm confrontational when I choose to be...

But I like this distraction... I like them all so far. It's not about obligations tonight because he is my friend, brother and roommate. They, my sisters. And them, they are two good friends of mine--both of whom I love and admire--who are, in soft voices, confessing and exposing themselves to each other. It's beautiful. I'm writing a paper about Raymond Carver and the idea of being concise/descriptive... I might post it up here, actually. It looks like it will turn up to be a good read.

Tangent over: Are they flirting? Him??? I knew he was a bitchin' mofo. But I'm really impressed because he's doing a good job and reading her very well; she's responding. And it's happy, I'm glad to be here, with their full knowledge, staring intently at my bright screen and typing these words with vigor as they pour out.

Johnny Cash and June Carter are talking about heading down to Jackson together. It's all fitting together. Tonight, in the midst of academic chaos and physical strain, it is beautiful.

I'm happy. Oddly enough, I'm happy to be the third wheel-ish character in this situation again.

Soft voices. Feet swinging back and forth. Bodies facing each other, but not making contact. Mirroring the other.

This is the room
One afternoon where I knew that I could love you
And from above you how I sank into your soul
Into that secret place where no one dares to go

Oh, it's Valentine's Day today. Isn't it strange how we bitch about Hallmark and consumer-driven culture and single-awareness day (You bitches!), yet are prodded by the red and the pink to think and talk about our intimate feelings? I like this day. I liked it last year too.

Iron & Wine is awesome. We're talking about making a combo cover band of him/them and Neutral Milk Hotel. The Iron & Milk Hotel? Neutral Milk & Wine?

Meh.